What do you do when you feel like your goin' nowhere? Take a hike? Play scales - again? Make noise? Sit in silence? My right knee hurts - again. It gets swollen and is a general pain in the ass sometimes. I hate cleaning the catbox but I like my cats. My dreams are filled with anxiety. I wonder what it would be like to live in Montreal? How long would it take me to learn to speak French? I don't have any new ideas. I have too many new ideas. Nothing is getting finished. Nothing is getting started. It's still not cold enough for ME to turn on the heat. What does being liked on social media mean? Maybe tonight I'll just continue reading M Train, the new book by Patti Smith. And maybe play some scales and make some noise or just sit and wait for silence.